I will be back. Can't wait to spend a white christmas over at Sweden. I will miss all you homies over here. Enjoy christmas alright, love xoxo. God's the reason for this season!

PS: I love buying and giving out gifts!
PPS: Just cut Dad's birthday cake because sadly I won't be able to celebrate with him this year again. Last year he was away at Shenzhen. He gave me two big slices because I'm leaving tonight and I wouldn't be able to eat the cake next morning. Yay to chocolate birthday cakes :) Happy birthday Daddy!

AND MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!

I had an encounter yesterday, I don't know what words to use to describe it. But yeah an hour of lying on my bed hiding underneath my bedsheets and thanking God that I'm fine and everything is back to normal. So then I was alone at White Sands getting papers for christmas cards, fear creeped into me again and I felt teary in my eyes. I'm just glad its all over.

TWO MORE DAYS BEFORE I FLY!!!!! Am getting quite excited over the trip now. I've this huge luggage but I don't really want to use it because its really really that big. Wanted to use the smaller one but ITS TOO SMALL! Even Jazreel was laughing about it! I sneak-peeked at Jeanette's luggage and was so amazed by the way she packed her stuffs. So I followed suit and rolled all my clothes! Feels so accomplished at my half packed luggage now. I've lotsa empty space though because I already have a huge luggage yet I'm still rolling my clothes.

Had fhm chalet and we baked the world best brownie before that!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 Eating it all by myself!

And I miss Mrs Kee so so so much! My amazing teacher who saw me through my D7 to A1 chemistry result for O's, I remembered that moment vividly :)

And then I met up with the girls for a mini afternoon picnic!

 

Haven't met up the rest of the girls yet because schedules keep clashing and I really miss them all alot :( Anyway these few days I was so lazy to choose music to play in my playlist that I decided to just listen to radio913 because 987 plays techno songs sometimes which I don't fancy. Then some were like you still listen to the radio?!?!?!!! YES I DO HAHA 

 Post Mission Trip Celebration though I didn't go for mission trip instead but I am so blessed by their stories when they came back!!! So proud that they did God's work and will there. So happy that they too were blessed and empowered from the trip. And look at the pretty christmas cake that Joel's mum baked for us! IT TASTED AWESOME!!!!!!!! And omg I'm looking forward to christmas right now.

The other day where we cooked our own dinner, I love cooking together as a group! Hate the oil splattering part though, will always give this job to the guys.

We were like "WIND TUNNEL!!!" From New Girl, which they influenced me to watch.

And I went shopping + blic with Mich too yay :) Haven't upload the photos yet, soon babe! I found a mini corkboard so I put it to good use and pin/hang up my friendship bands and necklace. I love friendship bands, those brown plaits kind, leather, beads, knots, anything.

Omg and you know what, I opened the fridge yesterday and found a rich chocolate cake inside! Time to eat some cake now yum yum!

I kinda miss netball very much. Holding onto the ball, stepping into the center circle, running and making dodges, miss the sport alot. As well as the team! Sat down in our school's newly built indoor sports hall and talked about our coach, juniors, how jc stole our happiness. We all haven't changed much! Just that Eelin is slightly less bimbo now, which is kind of sad because I love her bimbo-ness!

 

Not the full team, but yay Netball chungcheng :') 

 

And my dearest seniors!!!

Left school and squeezed 13 people into Celine's car like how we used to. I remember we always used to do that when we're going for competitions, unlike the other teams who got chartered buses. Then shocking passer-byes when we came down from the car one by one.

Headed to cell right after. Had a real meaningful time of reflecting  2011. The good and the bad. Victories and failures. Well its been a fairly fast year for me. And I really love reflecting. Makes me think alot! Mel asked us to sum up the year into 3 words. For me it was blessing, surrendering and enduring. Really sad me and Jazreel are gonna miss our cell's thanksgiving and christmas week :( Can't wait for upcoming sweden which is in a week though!!!!! Shall send a whatsapp message to god, please snow.

Oh yeah floorball trainings are doing good for me. Its tough, but learning alot from it. Been having a couple of friendly matches. Shall not delve into the details but very much enriching. I just find it so hard to be good at floorball now, I needa have more confidence in myself.

I've got so much things on my mind to complete. I needa get myself a new pair of denim shorts, shop for christmas presents, write some cards, catch up on studies, make a trip down to Mount Zion and look at books, find a new bb cover.

It was raining in the morning today so we couldn't run on the track for pt. Instead we climbed stairs. Did 28 flights up and down mj, and now my thighs are aching. Would still prefer to run on track, its much easier for me. I miss Jazreel please come back soon!!! One more day I can't wait for my whole cell to be back I wna hear stories from them :)

I baked cupcakes yesterday, with two lovely girls ash and ven. Pretty chocolate cupcakes with white choc as icing! I love to bake, especially the moment the nice smell coming out from the oven AND YOU KNOW ITS A SUCCESS! When I'm a mother, I'd take up baking classes and bake often for my kids.

I'm typing whatever that comes to my mind. I'd love to paint a skyscrapper on room  wall, if I'm given the chance. And stick some glow-in-the-dark stars on my ceilings. Parents are watching xfactor now, feel like going out to watch too. But maybe not I'm on my roller chair, wna roll to my bed soon.

How long does it takes to know a person? Forever is never enough. Because the moment they start changing, you don't know them anymore.

Work's finally over. Chalet is over too. As well as the friendly match with East View. Third time working at sitex, first samsung next lenovo and now toshiba. Honestly speaking lenovo is still the easiest to sell, I miss working for that brand. But it was another great experience this time, enjoyed working at every it fair. Meeting funny customers, enjoying lunch & dinner during breaktime, helping out one another with annoying customers.

Haha! I met a super cute auntie! The emcee was going "Last 2 laptops going for 899! Okay another one gone, LEFT LAST ONE" Then I was like "OMG AUNTIE LAST ONE ALREADY!!! i5 8GB RAM QUICKKK!!" And she went "I BUY I BUY!!!!!" And I pulled her hand to the counter hahahaha.

 

I miss putting up decorations on christmas tree!!!! Dad threw away our house's christmas tree because it was dirty. But I'm feeling the festive season still! Walking past shops playing christmas songs makes me wna go caroling. I always wanted to try that out!

  

 This girl is away on mission trip with our cell to Malacca. Hope they're all doing good there :) Texted them before they left WILL MISS ALL OF THEM SO MUCH!!! Told them to take lotsa pictures with the kids for me to see, and I told Josiah to give the kids chocolates too. I'm very sure they will be happy!!!!!! Really wish I could be there, next year I hope. Miss you much Jaz :) 

Friendly match with East View went alright. We wanted to win but ended up with a draw. And I did a amazing butt-fall after scoring one. Tailbone still hurts a little! Team mates played well, really proud of them. This is a stepping stone for more matches ahead.

I think mental willpower works alot for me! I told myself I needa get at least 3 sales on the second day of sitex, and yes did it. Then the next day at least 5, and amazingly reached 7. And for the match I told myself I'm going to get in at least 1 goal, and I did it. I like how I focus on what I want to achieve, and I aim for it. Okay going keep up the tempo!

And then it was chalet! A whole bungalow to ourselves. Whipped up our own dinner which was quite yummy, played games in the wee hours, talked, watched abduction, slept in some awkward small space, cooked mee goreng + egg for breakfast and cleaned up the entire house. Another episode of great memories!

Yesterday we had training, kinda even strained the muscle aches we had from our pt. So this morning so horrible. Was late for lectures but I couldn't bring myself to run for the bus because my whole body was aching. Had open house prep today and it was surprisingly quite fun teaching the whole triton our mass dance! Had lotsa fun playing around and dancing to our songs, ended off with a dance battle. It was really enjoyable, stinked up the whole classroom with all our sweat even though the aircon was on.

Got a really bad sore throat coming up after the countless shoutings and cheers we did today. One thing I'm definitely proud of mj got to be the house spirit. That's what I felt even as I stepped into mj for the first time, and now I'm still feeling it.

Oh anyway I had a really meaningful bus ride home with Clara yesterday. She had some little gospel booklet in her bag ytd, and we decided to place it on the seat in front of us, hoping that someone will sit and take a look at it. Then we prayed out loud for the next person that is gna sit, and that a seed would be planted in his life. I was just really awed by the moment, because I haven't done this in ages. Reaching out to strangers.

Then there was this auntie beside us who approached and talked to us. Asked us for our school, and I was like "Meridian. (Whispers to clara: idk how to say in chinese) Uhhhhh mei lian???" Then she reprimanded us for not knowing how to speak chinese and how she despises people like us. I was so intimidated by her. Very. Then she started talking about mental patients and I just felt so scared of her. Just kept nodding my head in case I offend her. Then suddenly, I had this strong burden for her, it was so sudden. Clara had the urge to share the gospel with her, but a pity I had to alight from the bus and couldn't stay to talk anymore. Passed the gospel pack to her and really just hope she'll be blessed by it :) I AM STILL SCARED OF HER!!!

Gna work at it fair tomorrow,  my third one. Gotta give school a miss though, quite bummed by the fact because I'll lag behind alot. Hopefully an enjoyable one this time again!

I love camps. I love the getting together and spending the next few days together, talking our night away and sleeping in together, moaning when morning comes, wet games etc. True enough OGL camp allowed me to have my part of fun, bonding with the trionites as well. Really appreciate all the SCs for planning this, deep deep deep down from my heart. I always admire the planning committee, I tried being one before and it was really tough work so I understand what they went through. So Meridian Sc's, you guys are really true heroes :)  

 

 Night activity 

 

Love bunking in with friends!

Last night was spent at study benches, talking laughing eating. Some went for nightwalk around school but I didn't because I was too lazy to move, they came back with stories with had my goosebumps standing up. Waited for macs to arrive at 3am, and went up to bunk around 4.30am. Always love the last night at camps!

Ending off with a 'O' cheer.

Still very much miss megalife camps. A pity this year we aren't having one :( I miss leading my group last year with small little cute girls like Shannon and Amanda. They were primary six back then, now they're secondary one, its really a heart-warming feeling to watch them grow up. Love giving hugs to them whenever I see them, and a pat on their head.

Hmm horrible pt yesterday. Ran 4.8km, did static trainings (weights, planks, leg lifts etc), then a little of sprintings. I died a little when I found out that there's training today. Hope it doesn't kill us just right after a day of pt.

Finally caught Apple of my eye which everyone said it was nice. I'd say its worth a watch, but I still prefer happy ending storylines. Then I met sweetheart for frolick tuesdays. 

 

 

Sat down and talked for ages. Feels good :) 

Though I cannot make it for mission trip to Malacca this nov, I joined my cell for mission training. Feels nice to be part of the process though you can't be there in person. Always wanted to visit the orang asli kids over there but I guess its alright. I still can make a difference and help them indirectly through the planning process.

Each time I watch Eveything by Lifehouse video skit, it still touches me. And they're gna act that out. So excited for them! Watched them rehearse and it was really heart-warming. And funny at some parts! Oh and we learnt a few malay words too. For easier communication there. And learnt a happy cute dance to dance for the people there! Lastly, balloon sculpturing to end off the training. Learnt how to make heart, sword, cross, SNAKE!! Not forgetting, countless of balloon-bursting moments and screams. 

Gna join my lovely cell for more mission trainings because I really want to contribute with my heart even though I can't go.

The other day where I brought them to Old airport road for some good food. 

Besides small lil cosy cafes, I don't mind meals over at hawker centres like chomp chomp. Then can order satay, honey chicken wings, carrot cake and whats-not. All the oily food, but really satisfying with great company!!! Or if I'm not in a mood to stuff myself, THERE'S A:WAYS A PRATA SHOP!! (Hopefully)

And triton ogl ice-breaker games yesterday! Not exactly everyone in this picture. Had fun! And I'm going to have ogl camp tomorrow till sun. I haven't even packed my bag!!!

Stumbled upon Nick Vujicic's vid and I decided to watch it again and I really admired him. Life without limbs. Took a photo with him before but now I can't find it :( But really admire him for living his life without complaints. "No matter what you're going through, that God knows it, He is with you, He is going to pull you through."

Been looking at winter clothes these past few days over at town. Its kinda fun looking at winter clothing! I don't like those windbreaker kinda material. I found the perfect dream winter jacket from pull & bear but I doubt I'll be getting it since I'll be going sweden once only. Gna borrow a few outer coats from Siewting yay she's so so so nice :)

Training today, and it wasn't one of the best one for the team. We got scolded by coach and a mini wake up call. True that, we're gna get thrased in sweden but I guess what we can do is to make an impression "hey that's the team that perseveres and never give up". Yeah! Gna work on stamina before the trip. But I need some discipline!!! Used to run every other 2/3 days but now I just lack the motivation.

I'm typing out this post while waiting for Marley & Me to load. Hopefully a good movie for a saturday night :) Oh and I just made a checklist of stuffs that I wna do. Some are not really realistic hahaha. But I shall post them up soon!

Bunz. We used to spend almost every sunday together for dance practises. Christmas dance, Easter dance. And I really love them deep down from my heart. We all have really similar personalities so its really easy for us to relate to each other. But the stuffs that we go thru are really different, but we stick through each other's tough times :') Feels like we've really grown up since last year because much has happened in our lives and no doubt I'm gna continue holding on to this friendship till we get kids and still hang out together.

Snuggled at verny's house and dearest girl bought lotsa food for us awww :) we finished up her whole huge pack of m&m's!!! Watched Enduring love, and its one show which I'd never watch again. Ridiculous storyline and when I went school the next day I couldn't help but to share the weird and disturbing storyline to my classmates!!! Hahahaha.

I really enjoy crashing friend's house because it gives me the warm and comfy feel, like you're part of them. You're part of their life. And be in just spending the whole day at their house doing nothing but just talking eating playing sleeping, I don't mind.

Found out that the new sports complex at pasir ris has pasta mania and once upon a milkshake!!! Another great hangout place for me because its so quiet. And plus I love ice cream :) Happy food!!!

Hmmm op was yesterday and YEAH ITS ALL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wasn't really anxious about my op because its been one of my better component. Just afraid about the q&a but thankfully it turned out fairly well. Though I tripped over my words for one part of my presentation, laughed a little while presenting the benefits part (grr its Mr Hon's fault!!!) and forgot what I was talking abt in the middle of q&a, I'm still glad I recovered quickly after each mishap and went on. Really thank God for being beside me through the entire pw journey. Now its just one last component - i&r!!! But actually tbh, I think I'd really really miss pw!!! Anyway I was really glad all my group members did well yesterday!!!!!!!!!! Like really happy for all of us :) :) :) WE DID IT!!!!

Listened to other classmates present too and I kept smiling at them! Felt so proud of them :) Fiona says she feels less nervous whenever she sees me smiling at her when she's presenting. Aww haha smiles help alot :)

Spent post-op at old airport road for early dinner and headed to vivo for some window-winter shopping and sat at vivo deck till 10. Really great night with two of my girls whom I treasure alot :)

Starting off this post with, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me - Philippians 4:11. Made J2  cards together with my lovely girl jazreel at subway. I can't imagine if its my turn right now in the midst of preparation of A's. Scary isn't it! But we're all going go through it soon.

 

 Millions of hugs and kisses to you hehehehehehe

STEAMBOAT! Yay to my cheesetofu!!!!!

  

Finally managed to talk with my dearest Kele, at subway again too (hahaha!) Our cell is forever subway-ing, or fish&co. If Sarah is around, then it'd be tea valley. The usual 3 spots haha!

Op is this coming wednesday. Tbh, no matter how much I dread pw now I WILL ACTUALLY MISS IT!!! I would really miss working together with Angela and Wiky. They've been my pillar of supports each time we have pw meetings. At tamp cfbean. Not forgetting yj too, went to his house yesterday for voice recording. It was fun being a manager! And watching our edited vid makes us feels so accomplished and happy :)