A week back we had our first ever floorball bbq. Popped by Clara's house before the night, and got to know her sis and mum which was quite a cool thing. Played with her neighbour's cute lil baby too. Headed to Anisa's house and oh reminds me SOMEONE PLS EAT PRATA WITH ME AT SIMPANG SOMEDAY!!!!

Enjoyed the night with the girls, and thanks to the guys who cooked delicious chicken wings and satays too!

 

Don't really fancy bbqs because I only eat hotdogs and satays but thankfully it was great company :') 

Did I mention about wr submission last friday? IT WAS MAD. No seriously mad is an understatement. It was beyond madness!!!!!!!!!!! Don't really like the fact that we had to redo 70% of our wr the day before submission due to late notice, teacher kinda apologised and all we could do was to just resign to fate and slog our guts out past midnight. Left fel's house after 12am and thankfully caught the last bus home. 

Submission day was hectic. Stayed in class and edit edit edit x100. Ran to the library and bookshop to print and bind, and made in on time! Second last group to submit WE MADE IT. We weren't even satisfied with our final work because we didn't had time to read thru the whole document!

Felt so insecure. But I'm just glad its all over. Gotta edit my op script and re-memorise it now because content in wr is slightly different now. I will pull through all this, together with supportive group members. (Some) hahahaha.

Like this sentence. Pw is not about getting the grade. Its about building relationships.

Sweetheart's wednesday

Finally gotten a day to hang out with my lovely sweetheart. Its been AGES. So so so long since we last hanged out proper besides random bump-in-each-other at church on saturdays. I miss her SO MUCH. And I'm glad I spent this wednesday with her together! Used to hang out around town, random bus hopping, exploring secret garden, like how much I hope to do this again, time doesn't permit. I'm just contented enough to finally spent a day together with her :)

 

Meet my sweetheart, Joan :) 

The cafe we initially wanted to go was CLOSED :( Decided on random bus hopping again

Settled on Raindrops Cafe. And it was raining outside anyway.

Wasn't planning to shop but I ended up buying a pair of heels and random stuffs along the way. Oh and we meet a few halloween people at scape. They figured out that we were scared of them and they walked towards us to scare us!!!!!!!!!!!! So intimidating. Reminded me of the time when I was walking along downtown alone and a group of scary masked people started surrounding me and I was so so so afraid.

Generally a well spent day :) More hang out days to come with sweetheart!

“We’re both looking at the same moon, in the same world."

I forgot what, but something gave me the thought and I realised I had 3 stages of friendship. Often, the first impression I give to people would be soft spoken and demure. I don't know why but most always say this. True enough, for the first few days/weeks/or even months of knowing me, I can be quite reserved. Listening to conversations, and contributing by laughing only.

Then I'll start opening up, where the talkative side of mine shows up. When I'm loud, I can be really loud! My inner monster unleash itself, and my shy girl image is gone by then. I enjoy making alot of noise, getting lively and all. I like creating a warm atmosphere, that's my personality. Life is too short for you to be dull and not have fun.

But however subsequently, I die down a little. Cy said I've changed, from a noisy girl to someone who toned down alot more. Who can be serious at times. Neither a good nor bad thing. I still do enjoy noisy moments with friends, but at times I get tired. I feel like I should only talk when I need to, laugh when I want to. Basically I'm just more comfortable around people that I don't need to put on a mask even when I'm tired. I just keep quiet and they'd understand. I like how they know I'm not making noise because I'm tired but not emo. I enjoy silence where both parties don't find it awkward but comfortable, I love that.

I just love discovering more about myself. I'm definitely a listener than a talker.

Had our first op dry run yesterday. It was madness, our timing got changed from 11 to 8am so we didn't had time to practise at all. Clicking of slides was based of feelings, and we just did our best reading off our scripts with emotions. Generally all of us did quite well. I prefer speaking so much more than writing reports. Presenting is definitely one of my stronger component. Teacher said I managed to bring in the warm and lively atmosphere just that at times I went a little too fast. So yeah shall work on slowing down hehe.

I think pw tested alot on my patience. Well it was just unfortunate for us to get an annoying group member who does nothing and decided to go mia for yesterday's dry run. I called and texted him, no reply. Sometimes he just gets on my nerve but I'm just glad I never ever reached the time where I blew up. I like how my pw mates are supportive of one another (I mean excluding him) and I really enjoy the pw sessions at coffee bean. My pw mates are my close good friends in class and its so much easier to work with :)

Its another day of pw today, well for the whole week ahead. Gna conquer the week.

 

I doubt @ashleytzy will be able to see this but for the million and one times, all the best for A's dear! Its a blessing officially getting to know you in Mj when we were both from cchms. Thanks for being a great agl, and how I would always bump into you in school and even outside on study dates. Believe that you'll do well for A's :) 

I just cooked spag for dinner with my mum! Lots of meatballs hehehe unfortunately no sausages. My dad is over at hongkong and the house is so quiet whenever I come home after school. I mean its already so empty being an only child :( OH AND I AM SO EXCITED TO BAKE SOON! Cookies/muffins/brownie whatever I just love baking with friends why don't have I an oven at home. 

 

There's training tomorrow for 3 hours, honestly I don't know how am I going to survive that. I like setting goals before trainings, it makes me more focused. Its alright if I don't meet my own expectations but I'm really afraid of disappointing others. I'd only feel good about myself when others tell me I did a good job. I don't know, I think I just got to be more confident of myself. Always feeling inadequate and insecure of myself. Got to conquer my greatest enemy, myself.

Been so tied down by pw, re-editing proposals and trying my best not to complain (hahaha). I thought I'd have the time to read finish my book by this week but it seems impossible now. Barely halfway through. I remembered my banana got squashed in my bag yesterday!!!!!!!!! I WAS SO ATONISHED I TELL YOU. I yelp out a scream, and they were like what happened?! And I showed them the sucidal banana and they started laughing...

Anyway it was a terrible thursday, I woke up with a spinning headache and feverish forehead. Had the thought of skipping school but I couldn't because I had my classmate's birthday cake with me. Sweet classmates bought watermelon for me because they said it can cool down my heat. And they forced me to drink herbal tea and I insisted no. Decided to play frisbee after school and I was feeling much better after sweating it out! Headed to ikea for dinner. Good time good time :)

Yesterday my fever was gone and I ended up with a tummyache :( It was crazzzzzzzzzy!!! Toilet was literally my best friend. I spent half of phys tutorial inside the tutorial, missed part of the going through of answers. Hm yes talking about results, generally I'm alright with them. I mean humans can never ever be contented with their results no matter how well they scored. But I'm generally thankful for my results. B C D D S. Don't ask about the S hahahaha it was expected ;)

Thank God for the end of promos, and the taking back of results :)

I think life is fragile. The moment you lose something, then you'll start realising its value and importance. I've never experienced losing someone so dear to me before. I don't wish to. I just hope my dear friend would be able to pull through this season, esp when its her A's this year. I'm keeping you in prayer :) Be strong. Daddy is at better place for eternal, and is looking down from heaven protecting you.

Currently 5:37 and I'm up because I couldn't sleep anymore. Gna get breakfast soon but I think my house kinda ran out of snacks. How I wish I've got a wand and it will produce a waffle with maple syrup breakfast for me yum yum :) Had another session of training yesterday. Honestly I'm not one of the best ones there but I'll definitely work hard and make the remaining months count. I like the girls in there. And how I'm getting excited to go Sweden with them and spend our christmas there! Carols, snow, fireplace, full day training, league, its gna be exciting.

Almost done with our group's wr and op. Never thought we'd complete them. I was editing our group's wr and told Wiky to cut short his part because its way too much words and its eating into our proposals. And he cut short from 1000+ words to 137 words! I was so amazed! And that made me laugh quite a bit too hahahaha.
 
Got back my maths results yesterday. It wasn't my best but I'm definitely still gna be contented and joyous over it. It breaks my heart to see people getting upset over their results and how you wish you could be there for them. But "you're not going retain" doesn't work anymore. Everyone's getting pessimistic, and I'm sure I will to if I'm in their shoes. I don't know how to encourage them, but just gna be by them for everything that is going to happen. Going to get back more results in the few days to come.

My dearest Jazreel Yeo whom I love so so so much :)

Borrowed this book a few days back. A bibliography on Natascha Kampusch, how she got abducted at the age of ten, survived all odds and just recently escaped from her abductor on 2006. Hopefully a good read. I just have this sudden interest to read about life stories instead of fiction books. Hahaha it kinda inspires me!

JC1 Bash

I could say last night was fun, with great company, deejay, laughter, but then again it further made me stand firm on my commitment. Alot more firm. Let's start from the top. JC1 Bash at Zouk! Haha I'm still surprised the teachers approved the JC1 party proposal. Headed to fel's house around 2, snuggled on her bed, painted nails and waited for the rest to come. Dressed up and we're all good to go. We had no idea what to wear so we were really afraid we'll go in underdressed because we heard some are wearing prom-dress like.

The deejay did a great job in keeping us entertained. I love how they provided my fav food!!! Hehe nuggets and pizza. Okay a plus point for that. And everyone looked pretty and suave :) Then the dance floor was opened, loud music and we literally had to shout to hear each other, all meridians started going crazy dancing. Really a sight! The only thing was I didn't join the crowd, I stood by the side. It was fun watching everyone though :)

But I think I'm gna be heavily judged. Alot saw me by the side while my friends were inside. Well I definitely had my reason for not going in. Few years back I made a commitment to myself and God that I'd never club, and that's something I'm gna to live by. So yeah yesterday I kept to my commitment. People occasionally saw me at the side, joined and talked to me for a while, then I told them to go back in and enjoy :) Its quite nice to see how people cared, they thought I was sad or something!!!! Hahaha. 

While watching everyone, I thought I could have been over at down town for cell dinner. But I believe God allowed me to gain insights on what's life without him last night. I felt like I was through a little test last night, tested my values, my faith, and my resistance not giving in to temptations.

And now we're all sure that MUGGER SCHOOL DO CLUB HAHAHA and the deejay said its one of the craziest bunch of people he's come across.

I don't know who is going to read this post, but a little disclaimer here I do think that its definitely not wrong to club. Its fun once in a while, with crazy friends and all, would definitely be a great night, but just don't make it a lifestyle :) I just had my reason not to because I choose to live by my commitment. Overall I had a great night :)

Headed to supper at 313. I thought I lost my ezlink card but thank goodness I didn't hehehehe or else I'd be super bumped.

Love never fails

Jazreel gave me a pack of gummies today, and it made my whole night :) Thanks babe small little things mean much to me. Cell was good today. Word was on 1 Corinthians:13. A widely used book, but it kinda hit me in a different way today. Something I brought home today was Love always perseveres. Something I strongly believe in, and what I hold closely to my heart. I believe love is always a choice. No matter how tough circumstances are, you still chose to love. You persevere. And that's something noble. I'm gna try live by that.

Had pw mtg from 2 till around 7 today. Did up my part of the op slides. Plus it was raining today, so I did my op slides shivering. Oh and I managed to finally borrowed a book from the library today! The books which I hid in a corner went missing though, but thank goodness I found another book that caught my eye. Can't wait to finish reading the book! I'm kinda into life stories this year, so yeah currently the book that I've borrowed is about a girl who got abducted when she was 10 in 1988, and just escaped recently in 2007. The longest abduction in history. Okay I can't wait to know about the content, probably gna start reading a few chapters after this :)

And oh yeah I'm going sweden this dec!!!!!!!! Its a yes from my dad!!! Over the moon :)

Girls are like spaghetti and guys are like waffles

Girls are like spaghetti and guys are like waffles. They think like boxes but girls' thoughts are all over the place. I attended a fairly good talk today, didn't regret not going for it. Then it was training time! I felt like I didn't run alot because I barely sweated. And kinda uptight that I'm deproving after sucha long break. Got to wake up now!!!

Yay our post-promos buffet dinner :) I'm never ever gna eat buffet again (unless I'm tempted by it) but yeah never ever!!!! I was so full after the second serving. Whereas Bryce took like ten thousand over plates. Okay I like their cheesecake there :)

We kinda didn't know where we were after we finished eating. So we cabbed back. Extremely fun filled day. Did I mention we went to the wrong shaw and had to cab to the correct one because we were already 45mins late for our reservation. And then the taxi driver just had to scam us by going one big round - it felt like a ride to jurong :(

ITS INTENSIVE PW FROM NOW ON!!!!

At eleven

Just finished oovoo-ing with Renia and Pc. Lek's laughter is ringing in my head. And it still cracks me up whenever I randomly see ps's leg swinging behind!!! I showed them my ulcer and pimple... and lek laughed (she keeps laughing) and pc showed us his pimple too hahaha. It was a good night, in my red cch pe shirt talking to my old friends :)

Ferry rides

A trip to Tekong today! It was a fairly memorable trip. Virgin ferry ride to there too. Sadly I don't have any brothers so I won't be able to experience the "sending your love one off" feeling. That's so sad!!! I think its so sweet to take a ferry there with them and witness them being transformed from a boy to man. Aww :)

I enjoyed the ferry ride!  Though it was kinda bumpy and it got me dizzy after I got off. We watched some video which depicted the whole army life. Lotsa tough trainings, how they endured and pulled thru it, really some strong brotherhood in armylife. Seriously I won't mind going to the army now if I'm a guy. I think I'd enjoy the whole process and experience.

Got to explore tekong, held a heavy gun, take a shot, ate their ration food, watched them do their obstacle course, visit their bunks. Though the schl wasted our only day of holiday after promos by organising this trip, I think it was a good experience.

Oh yeah I'm so exxxxcited!!!!!! Schl subsidised our floorball sweden trip from 2.8k to only 850. AND PLUS THEY EXTENDED OUR STAY!!! From 7 days to 12 days. WAS SO ELATED!!!!!!!!!!!! Now hoping that my dad would allow me to go for the trip :) Gna spend christmas there though, mixed feelings. Gna miss out christmas in Singapore with my dear friends :( But christmas with snow there sounds good too??????????? :)

Still feeling the aftermath post promos feeling. Hahaha I love this feeling. I rather feel bored doing then to slog my guts and study. But what's new, end of promos is equivalent to the start of pw. I'm going to type my pw proposal after this blog post. Sigh!

Beats so imperfectly perfect

Since promos are over, and there are much more free time to spare now (besides the intensive pw looming  ahead), I'm going to be back blogging! I miss typing chunks of words in this empty space over here. My used to be favourite past time but jc life killed it. Thank goodness I'm still sane now. I have no idea how I got through 3/4 of the year but yeah I got through it. A year of testing my abilities, of doing seemingly impossible things. But more often than not, I'd proudly say that we're more than conquerors of Christ who strengthens us.


I like the life that has been given to me. Yes I do admit its tough, but I'm hanging on there. Afterall I chose this route and I'm going to walk through it. With encouraging friends,reassuring hugs, little notes and what's not. That has been what that is keeping me going.

Picture time! I miss taking lots and lots of pictures hahaha.

First raya visiting!

Meet 11S412

After a run. Sweaty.

A trip to Botanics :)

 Visiting Wey Jieh's new house at Punggol :)

 A visit back to our secondary schl, good old memories. 

 

 And then we got imitated by Renia's friends............

 BUT HAHAHA IT MADE ME LAUGH FOR QUITE AWHILE

And ahhhhh I feel so shy my friends witnessed me cry over a stupid and dumb and silly reason yesterday hahahahahaha. Their actions really touched me :')